he is not one who is surprised by much anymore, but it seems this place has its share of new experiences, even for him. he truly believed this Saber would be the last person who would voluntarily seek him out for any reason. but the thing is, he understands her personality decently well, so he suspects this is about some kind of... apology, or some foolishness, in which she will completely misunderstand what she should truly be sorry for.
but, well. he will not be saying no to a booty call from Seiba. he is still wearing her marks, even. ]
[ Gil never uses text, so congratulations on eliciting a miracle, Saber.
actually, it is not really that. he prefers to broadcast himself, but he has discovered the joys of emojis now. he supposes he can lead in like this, if that's what she's all about. ]
Saber. For what reason do you write?
[ and signing her name? this woman is so out of touch. not like him, who totally blends effortlessly into every place. ]
Very well. If you must be shy like this, I shall permit such an indulgence this one time.
To think humanity has returned to glyphs once more! We had such symbols in my ziggurat, also. Behold, it is a lion:
🦁
This may be for you now.
[ she is getting relatively lucky only because he has not yet found a married couple emote worthy of their beauty and he does not yet realize the significance of the eggplant emoji. COUNT YOUR BRIEFLY LIVED BLESSINGS, SABER. ]
[ Ah. This is supposed to be a serious conversation, but the way he talks about a lion emoji of all things is almost... charming? She needs to not think about that. This is serious. ]
King of Heroes,
I'm aware of such symbols, although I had not seen the lion.
[ Wait, she can't thank him for that, that feels weird. That's not the point of this anyway. Even if it's kind of cute. ]
However, such things are not why I write to you now. I wished to discuss the events of the full moon and tender to you my apologies; I was not in my right mind and I acted like a feral beast, without thought or reason. I attacked you, despite our truce. Moreover, I did not behave as a king should. You should not have had to witness such thing.
[ charming, Saber, but Gilgamesh decides that if they are to be more serious, it would be best to switch to video. when he does so, she will see him reclining on the couch, the scratches she has given him still firmly in place. his complexion is fortunate enough that the red does not look like too much of a discoloration; he wears a simple golden-link necklace, one of the few reminders of wealth here, as he has been forced to begin redoing his life. it is also one which he refuses to sell or part with. the evidence of their encounter blends somewhat with his red tattoos, which she can also see again now.
... not that there is anything left to her imagination now, needless to say. or whatever imagination she would have, if she had an imagination. but well. after everything, he at least hopes dreams shall continue to visit her. that would be highly entertaining. ]
Ah. [ he tilts his head and smiles. ] As denials go, that is so weak that it does not qualify, Saber. One might even say you evaded my question.
[ GOT YOU.
but he shrugs. what is he to do? what does she want? some absolution -- from him of all people? ]
What is done is done. The fact remains that unless you Bond, something similar, if not worse, shall happen at the time of the next Moon.
[ Why does he insist on being so impossible? Saber reluctantly tabs her own video function on. In contrast, she's wearing a high-collared white blouse and a deep navy blue skirt and she's sitting at a small desk, upright and entirely proper. Aside from some bruising on a cheek, she looks as put together as ever.
Although she is also very carefully trying to trim down the claws (or maybe talons) that she now has on her fingers to something that won't snag or catch unnecessarily. ]
Whatever happened, it was not something I was in my right mind to enjoy, even had I wished to, which I did not.
[ That's... sort of a sideways admission, maybe. ]
I am attempting to seek out a bond. You need not concern yourself with it, King of Heroes.
[ because her personality amplifies his dark fuccboi energies. that's why. besides, even if he is impossible, she keeps coming back. in apparently more ways than one. ]
Needn't I? As I recall, you were the one who approached me.
[ ... well, technically. he had already been in the area. and he was, you might say, sniffing the air for Something Interesting. and perhaps it was a coincidence. but the bald fact remains undeniable. ]
You recognized me.
[ he just leaves that there without further comment, as if it is an argument. ]
Heh. Why not try again in your right mind? It is true that such pleasures are best enjoyed when not in so beastly a state. Regardless, it is fortunate that you encountered me and not anyone else. I am made to withstand all forms of love.
[ Huff. She closes her eyes for a long moment, as if she's trying to consider something or maybe just stave off a headache. Why does she bother talking to him? Is it because she felt the flicker of something worthwhile underneath all of the arrogance while they were bonded? Does she feel the need to give him a chance?
She doesn't know. It's frustrating. ]
Recognized- [ SHe replies, eyes opening again. ]
-is not quite the word I would use. Although I suppose it would fit. My memories of that night are not clear.
[ Well, clear enough. Her cheeks color a little. ]
Even were I interested in pursuing such affairs again and in my right mind, you are the last person I would turn to. Why would I accept such a proposal?
[ he shifts, letting the fabric of his loose robes fall around him. he is wearing something like that picture above -- as near to it as can be managed from an approximation through Coven robes, anyway. ]
Am I so undesirable to you, Saber?
[ a rather neutral question. he does not sound so offended. but, you know. you did not seem to be complaining so much before. ]
I should think those appetites of yours would break an ordinary man in any case. But if you do not believe me, try it. You shall find the results not to your satisfaction. And then you shall return to me.
[ he almost hopes she does not Bond by the time of the next Moon, because he is absolutely certain that if she had jumped some rando, she'd have to rub one off the next day because she just would not have been sated. she might have eaten the poor mongrel.
but, perhaps this Saber is determined to play the role of the heroic sexless martyr or the perfect innocent eroge protagonist girlfriend. you know, whatever floats your boat. he just does not believe that is all there is to Saber. she certainly has many more desires than she wishes to admit. he believed it before, but now he knows. ]
[ Ugh. Her nose wrinkles. She's held herself aloof from human interaction for much of her life, refusing to consider attraction or sex or... anything like that, really. It's never been what she focused on or desired. She knows what looks attractive, of course. She feels attraction. She doesn't indulge in it, though. ]
Regardless if I find you pleasing to look upon or not, your personality ruins any pretenses you might have at being under any sort of consideration, King of Heroes.
[ She shakes her head and leans back in her chair. She refuses to play the part of a blushing maiden. She is nothing of the sort. ]
Even if I were to explore my own feelings and desires and even if I were to find pleasure in it, I would still not return to you, no matter how unsatisfied I may or may not be. Your arrogance repels me; your covetousness and desire to control me is nothing I want. That is the truth of it, if we are to speak plainly.
Yes, I am now quite aware of your desire to dominate.
[ but that's sly -- that she treats it more as if it is just a matter of nobility. ]
You say all those words, but they are simply self-denial. Even if there is a veneer of truth to your remarks, the truth is you are afraid of pleasure. You create an architecture of denial and restraint around yourself. For what purpose? It is not assisting you much here. Look at the sorry state you were in that night.
That was a result of the changes this place has wrought upon my body - not my own desires or lack of them.
[ Saber folds her arms. She really should just finish this conversation. She said what she wanted to say. ]
I practice restraint because it is the correct thing to do; to indulge pointlessly and heedless of the consequences helps no one. It distracts the mind from more important matters. Even here.
[ there is another slight delay in replies, like he is considering.
it is curious. just what does she want? ]
You are overlooking the obvious paradox, Saber.
You are a Monster. You are a volatile variety thereof, no less. That is the truth. It shall not always be possible for you to practice this restraint. In fact, it was precisely your restraint that led to this outcome, for you withheld from the action you should have taken. That was foolish of you.
Imagine if you had come across a lesser man that night. You might have left a corpse in your wake. You came to my embrace instead, and I helped you attend to your needs.
[ and that is how he chooses to see the entire dubious encounter. ]
That is not how I see it; I am fortunate that you were not injured or killed, however. [ Is she? Is she really? ]
I will find someone to bond with and this will no longer be an issue. It will be the end of it. And whether you think it is needed or no, I still apologize. Losing control is not befitting of a king.
[ so he was just a one-night stand to you, eh???? how cold. Winter's King, indeed. smh.
he feels a flash of raw jealousy and anger at her talk of Bonding. yes, even if he criticized her for not doing so. that does not mean he has to be graceful about the thought of her being with another. ]
Dishonesty is also not befitting of a king, Saber.
Perhaps you should face me again when you are ready to be truthful.
How have I been dishonest, King of Heroes? Or do you just see what you wish to see in me?
[ Which is really what it is, as far as she's concerned. He does not see her for her - only for what he wants as an ideal. An object to be placed on a pedestal for him to admire when he grows weary with his other treasures. ]
[ there no doubt is that, though he would not admit to it. however -- ]
You seem to forget that it is harder to keep secrets from a man you were Bonded to, even if it was a lesser Bond.
[ her feral state as indicative of her true desires... well, there is plausible deniability there. he thinks it was, but he cannot readily prove this. but he has a slightly better proof from their previous encounters. ]
You are dishonest in saying you find me entirely contemptuous. I felt your interest.
I can find you contemptuous and still find you interesting. You have felt the loneliness of being king; there is more to you than this arrogance and disdain for all the world that you put forward. Despite my better judgment, there is more to you than your greed and ego. And yet you cling to it.
[ Saber has never been one for psycho-analyzing, but hey. ]
That is what interests me, King of Heroes. Not your golden trappings and pointless decadence. But it seems that is all you wish to be: a hollow, golden statue, with little of substance.
[ she had certainly seemed in a more lucid state by the time she... left his company, that night. ]
You disdain what you find vulgar in me, yet in your moment of need, it was I who helped bring you to your senses. [ his tone, though, is light. maybe testing a reaction? hmm. ] Do you think that was purely selfish? Yet you do not seem to be angry on this point.
[ She does seem a touch flustered at that thought. ]
And it was partially my own fault for attacking you, as crazed as I was; I cannot entirely lay the blame at your feet. You did not take advantage of me.
[ Well, kind of. ]
Although I do not doubt you enjoyed yourself. [ UGH. She doesn't want to think about that too hard. ]
It does seem somewhat strange that your crazed nature should manifest in such a manner, though.
[ do you hate everything in your life that led up to his opportunity to make such an observation? ]
Why should a feral state make you wish for such a thing, Saber? To wish to kill me... yes, that may well be blamed on the Moon. Yet for your anger to manifest in such a manner... you truly think you might have behaved that way towards anyone?
[ it is kind of awful but he also kind of actually wonders now? ]
Tch... I shall not deny, I am not defied often. That anger did excite me. You even made me think I might possibly die. I had to exert myself against you. We are heroes. Of course it was thrilling.
You do not think I really believe that?
[ YES LISTEN ... that shit was violent af and he became brutally indignant over her audacity in having attacked him, but that threatening indignation is literally his foreplay horny mating call when in his right mind. it is just a deep unfortunate accident of the universe that his right mind and Saber's wrong mind converged on this point of thirst. but the point is his rude, thotty murmurs are... marginally... more respectful? a millimeter more? perhaps? ]
It is not "my nature". It is how this place has altered us. I do not expect you to believe anything - but I have made my apology. There is no point in discussing it.
[ Excuse her while she deflects. ]
It happened and I will not deny it. I will accept my responsibility for it allowing to continue as long as it did without being able to regain control. Insofar as you assisted me, I am grateful.
[ Although she doubts that it was his intent from the start. ]
I have no intent of... continuing any kind of dalliance. [ She lifts a hand - carefully, because she's still getting used to her claws - and rubs at her temple. ]
I see no point in concealing the fact that after our temporary bond, I have... a greater understanding of you, Gilgamesh and that that understanding has brought with it a certain interest in seeing what lies beneath the surface. You have been helpful and even courteous, despite yourself, and you seem to have friends here who claim that there is more to you and... I am beginning to be inclined to believe them. But do not mistake such feel as my wishing to become your wife. And do not think it means I am not on my guard.
[ She opens her eyes and gives the video a long look. ]
I remember what you did to me in my Grail War and although it was not you, it was still a "you" that exists.
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King of Heroes,
We should speak.
-Saber
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he is not one who is surprised by much anymore, but it seems this place has its share of new experiences, even for him. he truly believed this Saber would be the last person who would voluntarily seek him out for any reason. but the thing is, he understands her personality decently well, so he suspects this is about some kind of... apology, or some foolishness, in which she will completely misunderstand what she should truly be sorry for.
but, well. he will not be saying no to a booty call from Seiba. he is still wearing her marks, even. ]
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actually, it is not really that. he prefers to broadcast himself, but he has discovered the joys of emojis now. he supposes he can lead in like this, if that's what she's all about. ]
Saber. For what reason do you write?
[ and signing her name? this woman is so out of touch. not like him, who totally blends effortlessly into every place. ]
Very well. If you must be shy like this, I shall permit such an indulgence this one time.
To think humanity has returned to glyphs once more! We had such symbols in my ziggurat, also. Behold, it is a lion:
🦁
This may be for you now.
[ she is getting relatively lucky only because he has not yet found a married couple emote worthy of their beauty and he does not yet realize the significance of the eggplant emoji. COUNT YOUR BRIEFLY LIVED BLESSINGS, SABER. ]
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King of Heroes,
I'm aware of such symbols, although I had not seen the lion.
[ Wait, she can't thank him for that, that feels weird. That's not the point of this anyway. Even if it's kind of cute. ]
However, such things are not why I write to you now. I wished to discuss the events of the full moon and tender to you my apologies; I was not in my right mind and I acted like a feral beast, without thought or reason. I attacked you, despite our truce. Moreover, I did not behave as a king should. You should not have had to witness such thing.
-Saber 🦁
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there is a long pause between texts. ]
Hm. Did you enjoy yourself, Saber?
🍆💦
[ oops, looks like he found it. ]
Ha, I like that. It is an AUO trademark addition now. Behold further.
--The King. 🍷
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I fail to see how I could take enjoyment from becoming little more than a feral beast.
[ Not talking about his emotes, because she honestly doesn't quite get it herself. ]
The wine seems appropriate.
-Saber 🦁
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... not that there is anything left to her imagination now, needless to say. or whatever imagination she would have, if she had an imagination. but well. after everything, he at least hopes dreams shall continue to visit her. that would be highly entertaining. ]
Ah. [ he tilts his head and smiles. ] As denials go, that is so weak that it does not qualify, Saber. One might even say you evaded my question.
[ GOT YOU.
but he shrugs. what is he to do? what does she want? some absolution -- from him of all people? ]
What is done is done. The fact remains that unless you Bond, something similar, if not worse, shall happen at the time of the next Moon.
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Although she is also very carefully trying to trim down the claws (or maybe talons) that she now has on her fingers to something that won't snag or catch unnecessarily. ]
Whatever happened, it was not something I was in my right mind to enjoy, even had I wished to, which I did not.
[ That's... sort of a sideways admission, maybe. ]
I am attempting to seek out a bond. You need not concern yourself with it, King of Heroes.
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Needn't I? As I recall, you were the one who approached me.
[ ... well, technically. he had already been in the area. and he was, you might say, sniffing the air for Something Interesting. and perhaps it was a coincidence. but the bald fact remains undeniable. ]
You recognized me.
[ he just leaves that there without further comment, as if it is an argument. ]
Heh. Why not try again in your right mind? It is true that such pleasures are best enjoyed when not in so beastly a state. Regardless, it is fortunate that you encountered me and not anyone else. I am made to withstand all forms of love.
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She doesn't know. It's frustrating. ]
Recognized- [ SHe replies, eyes opening again. ]
-is not quite the word I would use. Although I suppose it would fit. My memories of that night are not clear.
[ Well, clear enough. Her cheeks color a little. ]
Even were I interested in pursuing such affairs again and in my right mind, you are the last person I would turn to. Why would I accept such a proposal?
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Am I so undesirable to you, Saber?
[ a rather neutral question. he does not sound so offended. but, you know. you did not seem to be complaining so much before. ]
I should think those appetites of yours would break an ordinary man in any case. But if you do not believe me, try it. You shall find the results not to your satisfaction. And then you shall return to me.
[ he almost hopes she does not Bond by the time of the next Moon, because he is absolutely certain that if she had jumped some rando, she'd have to rub one off the next day because she just would not have been sated. she might have eaten the poor mongrel.
but, perhaps this Saber is determined to play the role of the heroic sexless martyr or the perfect innocent eroge protagonist girlfriend. you know, whatever floats your boat. he just does not believe that is all there is to Saber. she certainly has many more desires than she wishes to admit. he believed it before, but now he knows. ]
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Regardless if I find you pleasing to look upon or not, your personality ruins any pretenses you might have at being under any sort of consideration, King of Heroes.
[ She shakes her head and leans back in her chair. She refuses to play the part of a blushing maiden. She is nothing of the sort. ]
Even if I were to explore my own feelings and desires and even if I were to find pleasure in it, I would still not return to you, no matter how unsatisfied I may or may not be. Your arrogance repels me; your covetousness and desire to control me is nothing I want. That is the truth of it, if we are to speak plainly.
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[ but that's sly -- that she treats it more as if it is just a matter of nobility. ]
You say all those words, but they are simply self-denial. Even if there is a veneer of truth to your remarks, the truth is you are afraid of pleasure. You create an architecture of denial and restraint around yourself. For what purpose? It is not assisting you much here. Look at the sorry state you were in that night.
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[ Saber folds her arms. She really should just finish this conversation. She said what she wanted to say. ]
I practice restraint because it is the correct thing to do; to indulge pointlessly and heedless of the consequences helps no one. It distracts the mind from more important matters. Even here.
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it is curious. just what does she want? ]
You are overlooking the obvious paradox, Saber.
You are a Monster. You are a volatile variety thereof, no less. That is the truth. It shall not always be possible for you to practice this restraint. In fact, it was precisely your restraint that led to this outcome, for you withheld from the action you should have taken. That was foolish of you.
Imagine if you had come across a lesser man that night. You might have left a corpse in your wake. You came to my embrace instead, and I helped you attend to your needs.
[ and that is how he chooses to see the entire dubious encounter. ]
There is nothing to apologize for.
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That is not how I see it; I am fortunate that you were not injured or killed, however. [ Is she? Is she really? ]
I will find someone to bond with and this will no longer be an issue. It will be the end of it. And whether you think it is needed or no, I still apologize. Losing control is not befitting of a king.
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he feels a flash of raw jealousy and anger at her talk of Bonding. yes, even if he criticized her for not doing so. that does not mean he has to be graceful about the thought of her being with another. ]
Dishonesty is also not befitting of a king, Saber.
Perhaps you should face me again when you are ready to be truthful.
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[ Which is really what it is, as far as she's concerned. He does not see her for her - only for what he wants as an ideal. An object to be placed on a pedestal for him to admire when he grows weary with his other treasures. ]
I make no apologies for saying what I have said.
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You seem to forget that it is harder to keep secrets from a man you were Bonded to, even if it was a lesser Bond.
[ her feral state as indicative of her true desires... well, there is plausible deniability there. he thinks it was, but he cannot readily prove this. but he has a slightly better proof from their previous encounters. ]
You are dishonest in saying you find me entirely contemptuous. I felt your interest.
[ A H E M... ]
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[ Saber has never been one for psycho-analyzing, but hey. ]
That is what interests me, King of Heroes. Not your golden trappings and pointless decadence. But it seems that is all you wish to be: a hollow, golden statue, with little of substance.
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[ she had certainly seemed in a more lucid state by the time she... left his company, that night. ]
You disdain what you find vulgar in me, yet in your moment of need, it was I who helped bring you to your senses. [ his tone, though, is light. maybe testing a reaction? hmm. ] Do you think that was purely selfish? Yet you do not seem to be angry on this point.
[ well. other points. you know. ]
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[ She does seem a touch flustered at that thought. ]
And it was partially my own fault for attacking you, as crazed as I was; I cannot entirely lay the blame at your feet. You did not take advantage of me.
[ Well, kind of. ]
Although I do not doubt you enjoyed yourself. [ UGH. She doesn't want to think about that too hard. ]
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[ do you hate everything in your life that led up to his opportunity to make such an observation? ]
Why should a feral state make you wish for such a thing, Saber? To wish to kill me... yes, that may well be blamed on the Moon. Yet for your anger to manifest in such a manner... you truly think you might have behaved that way towards anyone?
[ it is kind of awful but he also kind of actually wonders now? ]
Tch... I shall not deny, I am not defied often. That anger did excite me. You even made me think I might possibly die. I had to exert myself against you. We are heroes. Of course it was thrilling.
You do not think I really believe that?
[ YES LISTEN ... that shit was violent af and he became brutally indignant over her audacity in having attacked him, but that threatening indignation is literally his foreplay horny mating call when in his right mind. it is just a deep unfortunate accident of the universe that his right mind and Saber's wrong mind converged on this point of thirst. but the point is his rude, thotty murmurs are... marginally... more respectful? a millimeter more? perhaps? ]
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[ Excuse her while she deflects. ]
It happened and I will not deny it. I will accept my responsibility for it allowing to continue as long as it did without being able to regain control. Insofar as you assisted me, I am grateful.
[ Although she doubts that it was his intent from the start. ]
I have no intent of... continuing any kind of dalliance. [ She lifts a hand - carefully, because she's still getting used to her claws - and rubs at her temple. ]
I see no point in concealing the fact that after our temporary bond, I have... a greater understanding of you, Gilgamesh and that that understanding has brought with it a certain interest in seeing what lies beneath the surface. You have been helpful and even courteous, despite yourself, and you seem to have friends here who claim that there is more to you and... I am beginning to be inclined to believe them. But do not mistake such feel as my wishing to become your wife. And do not think it means I am not on my guard.
[ She opens her eyes and gives the video a long look. ]
I remember what you did to me in my Grail War and although it was not you, it was still a "you" that exists.
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